IT WILL NEVER STOP TALKING

It tells me:

"You haven’t done it before, you haven’t tried, you haven’t trained enough, maybe take another course—no, actually, take several. And even then? You’re still not ready. You need approval. You need validation. You need to ask an expert, wait for the right time, test it out a hundred times. What if you lose interest? What if you can’t finish what you started? Why would anyone choose you for this?"

Oh, it goes on and on…

Are you my enemy?

What kind of friend are you? What kind of companion?

Do you even like me?

Why do you do this? Why is there never a way forward with you?

Are you seriously telling me that unless I tick all your impossible boxes, I can’t take action?

Who poisoned your mind with this hopelessness?

What happened to “maybe”?

What happened to “why not”?

Let me tell you something—I was wrong to trust you so much.

I believed you unconditionally.

I never questioned you.

Every time you whispered something in my ear, I just nodded.

But not anymore.

I’m done obeying you.

From now on, I will listen to you, but I will not bow down to you.

What if you are wrong?

What if you were fooled?

What if you’re just repeating an old story that you thought was the truth?

This conversation—was it with someone else?

No.

It was between me and my thoughts.

Because I have believed in my thoughts for so long—called them mine, owned them—that I never realized…

They have been hurting me.

But now, I will question them.

I will ask them, “Are you sure?”

I will say, “Show me proof.”

And if they can’t?

Then I will treat them like a stranger’s opinion.

I won’t just nod anymore.

Because sometimes, our biggest enemy is nothing but our own thoughts.

So tell me—what is something your mind keeps telling you that might not be true?